So David came home from school today and said he had a good day but there was something in the way that he said it that I new something was wrong but figured it he wanted to talk that he would. So we get home and McKenzie and Jacob go out to play with their friends and David and Kaleb decided that they were gonna play some video games in the house. Adger and I laid down to watch Justified. All seemed so right in our world for a good 30 mins, then David started screaming at Kaleb. Adger not sure what to expect what was about to happen especially after last time went to see what was going on and David ended up yelling at his daddy, probably not meaning to, so of course Adger yelled back. So David in an abundant amount of tears was sent to his room. I gave him a few mins then asked him to join me in my room. He came in and sat on the bed and then laid in my arms to cry. I love my son and I know he loves me but he has not laid like that since he was little. I mean really mom an 11 year old that wanted to curl up in mommy's arms and cry WHEN DOES THAT HAPPEN? So I let him cry it out for awhile then Adger came in and asked him what was going on and of course he doesn't wanna talk because he is still crying but more of an embarrassed cry cause daddy is in the room. So after talking to him for a bit we find out, and hope that this is all that has been going on with him these last few months that he has been so angry, that he is upset that he isn't being home schooled, mainly because of the part where he doesn't have to get up and get dressed every morning and get ready for school. So we explained to him the things that he gets to do that Kaleb and Jacob wont get to do. Talk about making me feel like a shitty mom! I have a son who thinks that I don't like him because I don't home school him like I do his brothers. Had to explain that Kaleb and Jacob would not do well in a school setting that they just don't have the social skills to be in a regular school. I am not sure if he really understands or if he still thinks that I love them more than him. If you know David you know how utterly impossible that is, he is such a sweetheart he would do anything for anyone. He so reminds me of his Uncle Marshall when he was younger. He also had a big heart and would do anything for anyone. I would give anything for him to turn out like his Uncle Marshall, or his father. I just hope that he can see his own path to get there that doesn't include his anger issues.
So as my night goes on I am so realizing where the anger from my son comes from, HIS FATHER!!! My husband is freaking out that the house is not clean and telling my kids that after dinner they are cleaning the whole house. OMG REALLY! I know they have a chore list but when we are trying to do home work or school work does he just expect me to come and watch them get all of it done. Oh that's right I forgot he does.
After the night I had last night and the day I have had I wish I could just go to sleep and call it a day. I got a couple things going for my this weekend tomorrow gonna go out with the freeman family and go skating. Then on Sunday it is the super bowl, not that I care but David wants to watch it.
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