So life has been slapping me in the face left and right, David is failing school but not because he is not smart enough or hell that he hasn't even done the work but he isn't turning it in and we all know he is smart enough to do it. His teacher said he came back from being out for a couple of days with no prep work for a math test and scored and 86 on it could you imagine if he had the study time the rest of the kids had. UGH so having to make deals with him to get him to get his freaking head on straight. McKenzie is just absolutely refusing to do anything for her teachers unless it is something she wants to do. How ridiculous can one little girl be. Course Jacob is being the same way and he is at home with me and I cant get him to do half his work. Kaleb well he will do the work but in absolute protest. I tried going to a friends house to kinda hang out, let the kids play and learn about more cirriculum ideas for next year and my kids had my nerves on a broken piece of sting by the time we finally got home. I was really worried that though my girlfriend knows my kids all have issues was going to be quite mad at me even though my children weren't the only ones there and werent the only ones causing issues. I am most certainly not going to name names or point fingers when I have children who act like mine do.
My doctors only made things worse by putting me on complete bed rest until I am seen again. UH 4 KIDS ASSHOLES THAT DOESN'T REALLY WORK FOR US!!!!! We have gotten lucky enough Adger has been here all month but that hasn't changed the fact that I have to take the kids to and from school and make dinner and get home work done and find clothes for them to wear or that lost shoe when we are already 10 mins late, or teacher conferences or all these damn things that they need volunteers for. Sure the basketball game and cheer leading volunteer thing was easy they made accomidations for me to sit the whole time which was nice I even had my leg up the whole time. But you can only imagine what my house looks like right now. And my wonderful husband says I appreciate that you are finally adhearing to bed rest but you can still give the kids a job to do as far as cleaning and they can get it done. Uh Adger I would like you to meet Kaleb, David, Jacob, and McKenzie they would be our children ya know the ones you have to stand over to get anything done and you think it is easy from bed. HA you try it. Managed to get Jacob to come help me go through a bunch of clothes that I need to get rid of that have made a mountain in my room and instead of being even the least bit appreciative Adger threatens to throw Jacob's things away because he wasn't cleaning his own room. So I explain what happened and then I get yelled at for not remembering that Jacob was supposed to clean his room today. I am beyond tired of being treated like a child. I am for everyones sake obeying doctors orders to the best of my damn obility for the first time in years and am still getting life all wrong. (at least according to my husband)
Oh and my new favorite (if ya don't wanna know about my sex life don't read the next paragraph) is that one of the medicatons my doctor has put me on is totally preventing me from having an orgasm. WONDERFUL right! about the only thing I can look forward to being in bed and I can't even get that. And believe me it is not for lack of trying, Adger is the best lover I have ever had and if he knows that my meds are doing this to me he will try til I tell him to give up, however this is the second time that this has happened so I haven't told him what is going on, probably not the brightest idea I have had right now but what difference is it going to make even if he knows I wont get one which is probably why I have so much built up tension. And believe you me I have made sure we have tried almost everyday for 2 and a half weeks. So you would think my husband would have to be one of the happiest men alive right now, I mean how many men can say after 4 kids that his wife wants to have sex everyday more than once a day at that? Not to many.
Anyway now that I have stopped the cymbalta the involuntary muscle spasms have stopped and I don't feel so much like I am in my own little dark corner much anymore. I am still very depressed and I am pretty sure that being stuck in bed has nothing to do with it. Something else just seems so off in me and I don't know what it is. I wish I could figure it out and make it go away or just cut that part out of me. I did tell them though that the depression meds would make it worse and no one would listen. Ah well I am coming out of that little funk. Happy to start being me again.
Well off to bed gotta get up early tomorrow thanks goodness we have a 3 day weekend.
Rant more tomorrow!
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